Thursday, March 12, 2015

This crazy beautiful thing that happened

Flashback: the week of Christmas, 2014. Work drama per usual, running around like mad, getting ready for work while mentally compiling the list of gifts to finish wrapping and the final things to do before driving to NC for the holiday. A pregnancy test, just taken, was tallying its result. Not that the chances were great it'd be positive - after three years and seemingly endless interventions to get pregnant with Hazel, this was the very first month we were officially trying to have #2. So there I was again, temping and charting, even though we both admitted to each other that the sound of my basal body thermometer's beeps in the morning gave us PTSD reactions. I figured I'd rather know the result alone in our house than during the rest of the week's craziness, when we'd be spending two days in NC followed by two days in CT. By the time I started showering I'd actually sort of forgotten about the test, my mind was so full of things to do that day. I reached for the body wash and happened to look over. My heart nearly leapt out of my chest. Was that...? Surely that isn't...? 

But it was. Holy crap, it was positive.

Talk about surreal. So much effort the first time that we didn't dare wait a second longer than necessary to try for #2, in case we were in for another three-year journey of outrageously costly medical hell. So no, we didn't dare wait... but that didn't mean we really had hope, either.


We told our families right away, later that week, toasting to our Christmas miracle. We were cautiously optimistic that everything would be okay at that first ultrasound. Having had sad news at a previous ultrasound, we steeled ourselves for the worst. We told ourselves that even if this pregnancy wasn't viable, at least we knew we could get pregnant on our own - that simple knowledge felt absolutely revolutionary to us, after all we'd been through. Everything looked great, though. A tiny little bean with a great heartbeat. Each time we checked in, that bean grew bigger and was doing more tricks. Sucking a thumb, spinning around, kicking. A happy camper with a due date of August 28.

We knew from the start that we'd find out the sex. I'm too much of a planner to wait to know - I need the information yesterday. I didn't have an instinct one way or another this time, but found myself thinking more about a boy than a girl as time went on. At the end of February those boy thoughts panned out - our bean (whom we'd taken to calling "Dos") was a he! A little brother for Hazel - too, too good.

Two kids has been our number for a long time, and knowing that #2 is a boy helps cement that thought for us. We'll be a family of four, with a boy and a girl 21.5 months apart. Life is going to be crazy and wonderful and beautiful, and when I stop to catch my breath and consider that, I can't stop smiling.


18 comments:

  1. It's really such wonderful news.

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  2. This is such great news, especially that it was easier this time around.

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  3. So exciting!! Congratulation to you all!

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  4. Hooray!!! So happy for you guys!

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  5. Congratulations! What awesome news.

    You don't know me, by the way, but I started following your blog after a google search for "Fearrington Folk Art" led me here. I am Tar Heel born, Tar Heel bred, Tar Heel Dead. :)

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  6. I'm so happy for you! I've been reading your blog for a bunch of years after stumbling on it. I know what you went through for H so for this to just happen is so amazing. Congratulations!

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  7. This is so wonderful! Congratulations! I love your story and the way you tell it.

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  8. Your blissful happiness is bouncing off the screen. :) Congratulations!!

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  9. This is such great news for you all and gives me so much hope!!!!! CONGRATS Been following your blog for a while and have been revisiting your posts on infertility recently as we are going through pretty much the same thing and totally unexplained! Congrats, congrats, congrats!!!! :)

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  10. Just over the moon for you three - soon to be four! Such happy, happy news!

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  11. That's such fantastic news, congrats to you and your family!

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  12. We have been on similar paths you and me. I got married the year after you, and had just had a miscarriage when you posted about starting IVF. It took my us 2.5 years to have our daughter who is now 8 months old. We plan to start TTC again this summer and I only hope our story has a good an outcome as yours. I'd love to get pregnant on the first shot for once. So many congratulations to you and your family!

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  13. So so happy for you, Maggie!!!

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  14. i'm obviously thrilled about little dos's arrival, but also love, love, love how happy you are. <3

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  15. i'm obviously thrilled about little dos's arrival, but also love, love, love how happy you are. <3

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  16. I'm catching up on reading and knew the news but not the story. This is so incredibly awesome. Happy New Year!!!

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